My Story

Hi! I’m Marietta, and I’ve struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember.

For the longest time, I felt like I was broken, like this was it and nothing was ever going to get better. I wanted nothing more than to feel “normal”, and when I compared myself to everyone around me, especially those whose lives I could easily view on social media, my mind was made up that “normal” was never going to be something I could achieve.

Finally, after years of therapy, journeying down different avenues in failed attempts to find myself and figure out who I am, I can finally say that I’m on my way to finding that person.

I still face struggles every day, experience intense anxiety when leaving my comfort zone, and have moments when I doubt everything I’ve ever done, and continue to do, to help myself.

Maybe it’s all for nothing. But maybe, just maybe, it’s not…

In this age of technology, undoubtedly both a blessing and a curse, more people than ever are experiencing the same struggles, among many others, that I always thought made me inferior. And THAT is normal.

Social media is a lie, life is harder than ever, and struggling with your mental health IS normal.

Doubting yourself is normal.

Feeling hopeless and clueless as to how to help yourself, is normal.

Here I am, someone who laughs too loud, cries too hard, and loves so, so deeply. I get excited to see pretty flowers, unnecessarily overwhelm myself over what to bake for minor occasions, and I still quote and laugh hysterically at Vines from over a decade ago.

I have never felt so confident to be so silly, as long as it’s with my shameless husband and three adorable, and occasionally satanic (I’m looking at you Miss Poppy!), cats.

But most importantly, I’ve learned that I don’t need to apologize for being who I am.

All of those things are my special, one-of-a-kind brand of weird, and they, along with everything I’ve been through, make up the person I am today.

That’s why I’m here, writing this blog. I know there are so many people out there who have felt some of these same feelings. There are so many people who have felt, or maybe still do feel, absolutely hopeless, and if that’s you, I want you to know that you’re not alone.

You’re here, and so am I, and that’s enough to mean something.

With this blog, my greatest hope is to build a community of people who have been in the same (seemingly sinking) boat that I’ve been in my whole life. Even if it only helps one person, that means I’ll have done something that matters.

So, whoever you are, whatever you’ve been through, and wherever you are in your journey, you are welcome here.

I hope to be able to take this next step towards better mental health with you!

Always,

Marietta